Tuesday, September 27, 2011

this is not a poem.

it's been a run on sentence kind of day
a couple of days ago i took a heavy clunk to the head
which is up there on the list of
really bad things that should not happen to someone with a neurological disease
and found myself dyslexically writing certain letters of the alphabet backwards afterwards.
troubling.

i am too sad to write.
maybe it's the year of the rabbit, which is said to take issue with my kind.
maybe it's pms.
maybe it's that life is so damn hard all the time.
it's so hard sometimes, that All i can do is write.
and spit it out onto paper
like puddled black spattered ink.
as if it's my comment on this shitty day.

24 comments:

  1. god bless you!

    Mark

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  2. I hope that you are at peace. I loved your sweet face and your sweet heart and your sweet poetry. I hope that you are at peace.

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  3. You are always a shining bright light dear amberlin, you will be missed x

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  4. <3 Your art was my favourite, 'I remember dancing', I hope you have those shoes on to twirl around in. <3

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  5. I wish we would have discovered each other before your passing. What a lovely, bright and creative soul you had. What a loss for our world. Rest in peace, dear one... and enjoy those dancing shoes in Heaven. XO Jean

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  6. Amber really moved on? What happened? I haven't heard yet. :(

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  7. Any word on services?

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  8. I didn't know you but I wish I had...rest in peace Amberlin.x

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  9. You will be missed, Amberlin. You made a difference in people's lives and that is the highest calling.

    Rod

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  10. You are an angel above us, Amberlin. Rest in peace.

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  11. Beautiful, kind, brilliant, creative, funny, caring, strong, larger-than-life Amberlin, you will always live in the hearts of the many people whose lives you have touched. You are a bright light indeed.

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  12. you are a light Amberlin. rest in peace.

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  13. I was so sad to hear about this loss to the ME community, and of course to Amberlin's close friends & family. What a tragic loss of someone so young! My thoughts are with all of you who were close to her.

    Amberlin, I am so glad you are now at peace - I know what a hard thing that has been for you to find, because I have that same struggle. Rest gently.

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  14. Well, I wish this hadn't happened. Amberlin, thank you so much for indulging me in my endless chicken talk and photo shoot visits and thoughts about "interesting" coops. Thank you for asking me for advice about getting ducks and for going ahead and ignoring my advice and doing what your heart told you to do. They're adorable and you were right. When I think of you I will remember you holding that tiny baby runt goat and beaming while standing next to your daddy. I love that photo. Fly like a bird, Amberlin. Show them how it's done.

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  15. Amberlin, it is so interesting, because I dreamt of you some weeks back...and I told you that. You entered my dream and we were in Hawaii together. In the dream, you were driving the car and I was a passenger. We were in this beautiful, blissful paradise together.

    I hope that is where you are now.

    Merge into the Light. Release all attachments. Release all pain. Be free. We love you.

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  16. "too soon, too soon."

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  17. No one knows if there's going to be a service?

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  18. Hi, it's Clayton, a friend of hers. sorry, the info doesn't really exist yet. everyone's still in shock. her parents went out of town to grieve. there will be a memorial service in a few weeks I think. we're going to try to announce it early enough to make sure that no one who wants to go will miss it. love to all. sorry.

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  19. So so sad, gone too soon. Dance freely now Amberlin among the angels xxx

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  20. Amberlin, my soul is shattered. You were such a giving person, I am so thankful to have met you. I spent Thanksgiving and Christmas with you last year, and I am going to be so sad this year remembering the warm times we shared together. I love you, forever.

    Emily Alcantar

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  21. I wish that I could meet you. I was invited, but I couldn't make the time. I feel so sorry. Rest in peace, Amberlin.

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  22. A memorial service will be held for Amberlin at 2:30pm on Sunday, November 6 at the Mountain View Community Center. For more information please visit: www.bit.ly/amberlin.

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